Watching and Waiting


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This past week I have gotten a fresh perspective on the reality of what it means to “watch and wait”. When we are in a smooth season, it can be easier to rest in the midst of waiting, watching for the Lord’s move and answers. When it is a difficult season, the ground under your feet is shaking, the winds are howling, and you are looking for light in the midst of the gale and seeming darkness, it is not so easy.


It can be so much easier to judge those in a hard place when we are not there in that hard place. We can forget they need our ears to listen carefully, our hearts to care with fierce devotion, and our knees to be bent in prayer.


Each of us responds to such seasons as best we can for the season we are in, the measure PPP 013of our faith, the depth of our understanding, and the place we are in our maturity. If we have walked through such seasons before, our experience gives us much to lean on whether for ourselves or someone else.


This past week I have witnessed it in many ways as we watched one of our granddaughters, 13, endure a serious surgery resulting in considerable pain not abated by medication. One afternoon on our visit to the hospital I was deeply impacted as I observed her siblings in the response each had as they sought to come alongside their sister.


Her older brother, 19, squatted beside the bed with his eyes lovingly focused on her, speaking softly his words of encouragement and scripture. Her older sister, 15, was entrusted to hold her favorite stuffed animal, Puppy, when she could not. In another corner of the room, her younger brother, 11, observed it all, closed his eyes, and with furrowed brow silently prayed fervent prayers.


It was a poignant moment for me as a grandmother to these four. One I shall not forget and cherish for the love, care, and concern each was expressing as they had some of their first experiences of watching and waiting.


I saw the scene from eight hundred miles away as our other two grandchildren, 18 and 22, sought to cheer her with daily jokes via short videos that brought some of her first smiles. Her aunt and uncle joined in the effort as well and kept up all of our spirits in this way and in both warfare and healing prayers.


PPP 001 200I saw it also from various cities and hamlets across the country where friends, relatives, and simply those who heard responded in continual prayer.


Then in the midst of our own watching and waiting, praying, and pacing, others came with food to bless us and care for us in ways we had no energy to accomplish. Another offered a play date for her younger brother to give him a break from the challenges we were all walking through.


Surgery was six days ago and we continue to watch and wait, to pray fervent prayers, and look to the only One who can accomplish the healing now.


She entered this surgery full of faith, confident in the Lord, and certain of His presence with her. As with each of us, this time is one of testing and strengthening that faith and confidence.


In the midst of pain none of us could imagine, her parents watched as she prayed through the whole counsel of scripture, calling on God loudly to remind Him of His faithfulness to those from Genesis to Revelation. She also reminded Him of His promises to her as He granted her a rainbow just outside of her window her last night in the hospital. She stood in all that He had built in her before this season bearing witness to His glory to all who watched her grapple with the pain.


She has come home now to finish the process, to run the race, and we run with her emboldened by her steadfast confidence in His love for her that has been so greatly tested.


As Isaiah 43 in The Message says in part:


“Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you, I’ve called your name. You’re mine. When you’re over your head, I’ll be there with you. When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it won’t be a dead end—Because I am God, your personal God.”

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13 thoughts on “Watching and Waiting

  1. Oh, so hard to witness the suffering of those we love. Lifting you up, right now, Pam, and your granddaughter as well. Thank you for sharing your journey here.

    1. Thanks, friend! This will be a very long recovery over graduated steps of weeks (8 weeks of doing little and needing help for everything), and then increments of more weeks and months until a year from now when she is to anticipate a return to all activities.

  2. Oh, I am so sorry for your granddaughter’s pain at such a young age. 🙁 Praying for her total healing, Pam! I’m glad you’ve been able to see how her siblings and others are rallying around her. That is a blessing.

    1. Thanks, Lisa! It has been a tough week and her faith has been tested and stood in a very hard situation. The recovery will be long…weeks, months, a year until she returns to all activities barring any glitches.

  3. I honestly didn’t realize the full gravity of illness/death of a close family member until two thing came into my own life. 1. 20 years ago when my stepson passed away in a car accident. 2. I started working in our church as “Community Care Coordinator” and sent out the church prayer list every week. The pain and hardship that SO many people suffer through…they were always thankful for our love, prayers, support, and gifts(meals, help doing chores, etc.) I recently went through a short-term illness myself and was glad to have loved ones surround me! Thanks for opening up and sharing from your heart.

    1. I understand on many levels. You are so right! This is not our first season of such things, but I think it is always helpful for all of us to be reminded when we are not in such a season of what it looks like. Blessings on you!

  4. I just love the way Sydney prayed bold, big prayers to our BIG GOD. Way to go Sydney. Your name has been on my lips over and over this past week, crying out for God to touch and bring healing to your pain. God bless you, young sister, and I believe for only good things for YOU. xo

  5. What an incredible granddaughter – The waiting room is rarely easy yet I learn the most in that time- about God and what I still need to learn. Blessings on you and your dear family.

  6. Oh Lord, is there anything worse than watching our grandchildren suffer?


    You have captured what it’s like to be a grandmother in the waiting room, friend. It’s an awful place, for it’s not about us, but about those we love … and feeling utterly helpless to soothe their grief and pain.

    May God have mercy on each one in your dear and precious family, friend. This chapter of your story moves me to tears …

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